Recently I've had some of those 'life f'ing sucks' moments, but also some things that have warmed my heart.
Trevor's athletics club, Telkom Athletics Club, has arranged to do a support walk for Trevor from Pinelands to the hospital and I had to ask permission from the hospital for the walkers to come onto their premisis. At the time it was weekend, and as I seem to have so much to remember and deal with lately, I decided to just email someone at the hospital, so they would see it Monday when admin staff were on duty. Early Monday morning I got an email saying that they think its a very heartwarming gesture of the club and they gave approval for the walkers to enter the hospital grounds. Originally it was going to be a run, but there are some logistal problems (permissions etc that would be required for roads etc that would take too long to get) so its been changed from a run to a walk (apparently its easier for walkers than runners). The Hikers Network rescue team that Trevor was a part of has also been invited to take part and many others are taking part too. The Hospital has been amazing about it and I'm so thankful for that.
Then came a couple of 'life f'ing sucks' moments. Last night I had invited the kids over for supper and I was trying out a new recipe. All went well, and I cooked the chicken casserole and was cooking the rice to go with it, when my gas ran out (I have a gas hob) :( but luckily we are seasoned campers, so we had a small cadac gas cylinder in the gararge which I could use to finish off the supper.
Matthew had given me Trevor's camera back the other day (he had it after the fall) and I had not looked at the pictures, but last night, after everyone had left, I took it out and looked at the pics. I sat here scrolling through them, my eyes filling with tears to see so much fun and happiness and knowing how it ended and then when my mind focussed on the fact, that the last pic taken, must have been shortly before Trevor fell, I couldn't take it anymore and had to put the camera down and I just sobbed and sobbed for a long time. I know Trevor would have loved the pics and would have been VERY eager to show us all and post them on fb, so at some point, I will upload them and post them, but right now, it just hurts too much :(
Then this morning I had arranged for Matthew to take me to book for my learners test and at the testing station they told me that the first available appt was 24 June :( I had been hoping to be able to write the test in a week or so and when we asked to speak to the management rep to see if I could get in earlier we were told he was on leave. My heart sank, but they said we could try another testing station, so off we went to the next one, only to be told their first appt was 19 June :( but their management rep was there and we spoke to him and although I don't have an appointment yet, there is still a chance I may get one soon, I just have to wait a bit. I've put off getting my drivers licence for so many years and now I regret that, because its now VERY important for me to get driving.
But there is a bright light. I contacted AnKo a gas supplier near me and had awesome service. They arranged to deliver a new gas cylinder to me and I told them more or less when I should be available for delivery and they contacted me just before then to see if they could deliver and they did and hooked it up for me, so that is one weight off my mind and I can now cook again. Thanks AnKo.
When we went to visit Trevor this morning his occupational therapist was there with him so we got to see what she does with him and how his arms/hands are showing improvements. He will also be having surgery on his fractured shoulder tomorrow, which will hopefully be his last surgery, unfortunately, it also has a 6 week recovery period though, in which he will not be able to do his full physio exercises on that arm, only with the wrist and hand, so while its ultimately a good thing, its also a bit of a setback in some ways.
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